How about some pudding?

How about some pudding?
Today, I thought about something. Well, more imagined something. Did you ever wonder how it would be if someone special, someone you care about so much, just wasn't there. Never was. You just lived on without her/him. I'd think it weird. I have a couple of people behind my head that I know I wouldn't be able to live without, but I'm not sure they feel the same way. Anyway, passing to something else, I felt the same feeling than before today. I guess it's the lack of communication. When I talk to someone I care about, it always cheers me up. But when I don't, or when they simply don't answer back, it leaves a sour feeling in your tummy (note to self: Make your thoughts clearer). Something else that happened today: I talked to my gran again. I don't really liked these moments. It's quite weird. I can't even remember the time when it was all normal. It's just so dark now. You know, I'm surprised to catch myself writing things like this because I am a very happy person. Honest. It's amazing isn't it, how change can suddenly switch lights off.

I need a smile, that's all, just a smile.

# Posté le dimanche 24 février 2008 12:00

Modifié le vendredi 05 septembre 2008 01:18

I feel like I did so many bad things today. Did the wrong choices. Chose the wrong words. All by just staying on the computer all day. Funny thing, isn't it? All of a sudden, it just felt like a whole part of me was gone and that I lost what I love the most. I know it's weird, but it's true though. It's pretty hard to explain. I guess things just catch you up like that, without warning. I wish it could all go away. I don't like this feeling. It's worst that the pudding feeling! And the worst thing is that you keep thinking of what you did, or what you could have done, but you can't find it. That one piece that will help you understand. I wonder how I come up with all this. My only advice: Keep close who you dear most.

# Posté le vendredi 22 février 2008 14:05

Modifié le vendredi 05 septembre 2008 01:18

Micky, Emily and company

Micky, Emily and company
I had the strangest dream today. More like a daydream. It was a vision of the past. A moment I never remembered before. I was still a student in Bishop Mackenzie British School. Oh, I was young. It was right before a swimming gala. I was wearing a green shirt, to represent my house team Mulanje. Around me, my team mates, classmates, friends, best friends and unknown people. I remember the house captains taking the lead, Micky and Emily were their names. They were both in High School. Both of them made sure to give all their love to us before vents like such. I remember Micky saying "Make me proud kid's" before the whistle announcing the beginning of the race rang. Isn't it strange, to realize, just now, the things you miss the most, after so many years?

# Posté le mardi 19 février 2008 14:05

Modifié le vendredi 05 septembre 2008 01:18

All you need to do is Smile, and you can make anything happen

Yes, I wrote Smile with a big S.

# Posté le samedi 16 février 2008 13:54

Modifié le vendredi 05 septembre 2008 01:18

All is good

All is good
I'm here. And so far, its' been good. People are nice so far. I'm the newby again. But it's alright. I'm keeping my chin up. I'm keeping my fists high. It's all good. It's different. Oh yes, it's different. But not in a bad way. Change is good. It's high school. They are fights, break-ups, make-ups, tears, laughs, smiles...It's big. Very big. But I didn't get lost on the first day. Some of the girls are very sissy, so I mostly fit in with the guys in sports. But appart from that, it's great. I miss them terribly though. Will I ever see them again? I'm missing to many people. I'v been spending alot of time on skyrock though. My friends there are amazing. Ludy, Matt, Anais, Thiago, Tom, Thomas, Jawder, Hamid, Beth, Caro, Maxime, Gary, Chris, Jennifer, Hanin, Andreas... I miss my friends on skyblog too. I miss the Harry Potter fandom...All is good.

# Posté le samedi 19 janvier 2008 02:45

Modifié le vendredi 05 septembre 2008 01:17